🔞🌲💛Turn off your cell phone...

🌲💛Turn off your cell phone, 

stop everything, 

go wherever you want it to be on a bench or closed in your room it doesn't matter and be alone with yourself. Hard isn't it?

Do you think you have already done it or do it all the time.

How many times do you get lost in your thoughts thinking about your life about your problems, 

isn't it the same?

Why should you do it now?

I was convinced that I was in constant contact with myself, 

with what I wanted, 

with what I dreamed of.

It was not like this.

I often suffered because what I wanted was so far away, 

so I tried to change plans, 

find better ways, 

I tried to have control of the situation but things never went as I hoped, 

so I tried harder and harder but it still happened something that blew plans and I felt terrible.

I was broken.

The first time I was alone with myself was in August, 

I was locked up in the lift, 

without a purse or a phone, 

I had gone to the cellar to get a box of water and the building was empty.

The emergency intervention took two hours, 

I was dying of heat, 

but I had water.

I saw my face in the mirror, 

I felt contempt, 

I saw myself horrible, 

ugly, 

adrift, 

but all that fighting for what?

I judged myself because I couldn't do better and if I did, 

others didn't see it.

I was in a maze of judgment, 

unhappiness, 

frustration, 

but that maze was me.

I felt pain, 

deep, 

psychological pain and then came physical pain.

For the first time I looked at myself completely accepting myself as I was, 

with all the confusion I carried inside but also observing all those parts that were in balance instead, 

I simply saw me without judgement.

I had spent a period of my life denigrating myself, 

my choices, 

my character, 

telling myself that it was my fault for having remained in situations that hurt me, 

and opposing this, 

to ME.

Then I realized that I simply had to learn about everything I wanted to get rid of, 

everything I condemned, 

embrace it with compassion, 

understand it and accept it.

The road wasn't judgment but acceptance, 

only in that way would I break those patterns that kept me imprisoned and I had to do it lovingly.

Transformation comes through acceptance, 

opposing only leads to staying in the labyrinth and fighting forever.

Take a time to undress completely and be with you… 

Your life will start to change if you do.

Taking time to be alone with yourself isn't always a walk in the park, 

it will often hurt a lot but there is no healing without pain so bless that too because if you try it, 

you're changing... 

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