🌺💜She is paranoid...

🌺💜She is paranoid, 

insecure, 

shy, 

too complex, 

unstable, 

incomprehensible.

She can't settle for anything, 

moody, 

capricious, 

vengeful and perpetually pissed off at the world and stupid, 

superficial, 

trivial, 

ignorant and closed-minded people irritate her.

She's an asshole, 

most of the time, 

you never know what's on her mind, 

she locks up 9 times out of 10 with anyone and for tiny things. 

Well, 

she is someone who looks at the little things and she takes it too dramatically, 

she would like to be different and not look at the smallest gestures, 

she would like to be what she is not, 

she would like to be more common because according to her everything would be much simpler. 

I don't think she should at all.

It's true, 

I often want to leave, 

because she turns sour when you do something wrong and when she's like that she doesn't give you explanations and she puts on preposterous masks when she doesn't really feel you close. 

However, 

she is someone who knows how to stand by you for everything, 

she is someone who doesn't face her own fears, 

but faces those of others.

She's someone who hugs you when you least expect it and does unexpected things, 

someone proud to the nth degree, 

who then writes you beautiful things when you lose hope, 

someone who knows how to make you cry, move, 

make you feel appreciated, 

someone who knows make you feel understood and special, 

one that gives you reasons to fight and smile, 

one that's always there. 

Sometimes, 

however, 

she decides not to be there anymore because she is terrified, 

she shuts down anything beautiful that makes her feel bad and expects too much. 

She expects that other one to show her a lot of things, 

she expects to be reassured, 

to be chased but who puts it into their heads that they don't understand? 

She says she loses a lot of relationships but it's not true, 

because then when it's late, 

they all come back, 

they all come back with things they should have done before but she's gone. 

She's gone for too many people and you never know how to deal with her because as soon as you do something wrong she gets it into her head that you have to run and run. 

She is contradictory for too many things and she always wants to do everything alone, she always wants to show herself the strongest but if she shows you even a tear she means that she is with you she doesn't need to pretend. 

It almost never happens, 

and when she shows herself to someone who hurts her, 

she begins to find a way to never make the same mistake again.

You are a person with too much inside and I would continue to write about how you behave, 

how you withdraw, 

how you protect yourself, 

how you hide, 

how you escape and how you "live". 

I would keep repeating that neglecting her or making her feel that way only builds walls for her, 

that taking her for granted or letting her down only triggers an escape route in her brain and when she runs away it's hard to get her back. 

I would describe her ways of exposing herself, 

her agitation at being the center of attention, 

the absurd paranoias that would just like to be removed by listening, 

her strange world, 

the security she transmits and too many things about her that characterize her, 

that make her what she is even if you don't like it. 

However, 

I think that if one wants to get to know such a person, 

one must breathe it on one's skin, 

but if one does not want to fight and improve oneself, 

what is the point of entering her life?... 

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