🌹🤍I've been so wrong in life +01

🌹🤍I've been so wrong in life.

I loved men who didn't love me hoping to change them, 

because I had read somewhere that someone had managed to turn a normal man into a superhero.

I tried it too.

And I failed.

I wanted men who didn't see me well enough, 

who kept me in the dark.

Not shadowed enough to make me angry, 

not light enough to make me happy.

And I learned the hard way that the twilight can be eternal, 

cowardly, 

cursed.

I tried to get men to love me by showing the best version of me.

All time.

And after a while, 

always becomes exhausting.

An actress who repeats only her best monologue, 

like a mantra, 

like a chant, 

like a punishment.

I was exhausted, 

enough, 

let me be myself, 

the worst version of me, 

the most incomplete, 

the most melancholy, 

wounded, 

disillusioned, 

that if you play then you die.

I ran after men who ran away because one day I believed that if a man runs away it is because he is afraid.

Then one morning I woke up and realized that those who run away are not afraid, 

they just want to go elsewhere.

And I have learned to let go.

And the more I let go, 

the more no one stopped, 

as if the pierced net made all the fish run away.

Then I realized that those who don't want to stay leave.

And that the pierced net is a blessing.

He lets himself go.

Nobody is holding back, 

because we are not random objects to collect, 

we are coins on the ground that thousands of steps trample and then two legs arrive that bend and pick us up.

We are not for everyone.

Let's stop wanting to be for everyone.🤍💖💗💕💓💘💞💝