🌳💛How I would like to...

🌳💛How I would like to make peace with myself that doesn't forgive, 

that doesn't trust, 

with myself used to disappointments and which always expects them; 

how I would like to make peace with my inflexible self, 

who lives in the grip of anxiety, 

who always puts a dose of fear inside beautiful things, 

with my self who feels too heavy on me and who has left behind too many unanswered questions. 

How I wish this part of me would find the well-hidden but rebellious little girl, 

with colorful dreams, 

the one who puts no limits on desires and doesn't let fears stop her. 

I would like that part of me to rediscover the brave soul, 

the crazy one, 

the one that thinks for a second and jumps in, 

that takes risks knowing it's necessary, 

that gets lost in imagining with open eyes, 

that feels perpetually capable of throwing itself into empty even at the cost of crashing, 

the one who knows how to look gently at her wounds, 

without being ashamed of them.

I wish you were one, 

only one, 

instead of always colliding, 

I would like that balance that maybe doesn't bring happiness but slowly builds peace.

Not of a lifetime 

- I'm not asking too much 

- but at least of one evening... 

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