🌹💜Sometimes you need +01

🌹💜Sometimes you need to cry. 

For years you have been 

blaming yourself, 

years since you have inflicted 

on yourself a pain 

that devastates you, 

a pain that you do not deserve. 

Somehow you have developed 

the belief that it is your fault, 

you did it because you need this 

to not think, 

not to hate, 

to justify a part of the world 

that does not love you even if it should, 

that does not understand you 

because it does not want to understand you, 

because it doesn't suit them to understand you, 

a part of the world 

that claims that you are a certain way, 

and when you are not that way, 

when you are not what they say, 

then you are bad. 

Then you are guilty. 

Then it's your fault! 

Sometimes you need to cry. 

Because you have endured this veiled, 

petty, 

devious violence for too long. 

You had to be protected, 

instead they used you as a shield 

for their frailties, 

for their failures. 

The more they made you feel guilty, 

the more you always said yes, 

the more they made you feel guilty, 

and the more you were available, 

affable. 

Accommodating. 

The more they blamed you, 

the more you tried in every way to recover shortcomings, 

mistakes, 

errors that were actually irrecoverable, 

and do you know why? 

Because you simply never committed them. 

Now you are stronger, 

now you are aware. 

Now you know it's not your fault. 

Even if, 

sometimes, 

you need to cry, 

for all that badness you have suffered 

from those who had to love you 

and didn't love you. 

For this life that sometimes promises us 

more than it can really give us. 

But now you have learned to smile 

at those who hate to see you smile. 

But it was not an easy path. 

It was anything but easy. 

It was devastating, 

but you came out stronger, 

and more beautiful. 

Despite the signs. 

Despite the still open wounds. 

That's why, that's why sometimes, 

at night, 

when no one sees you, 

you still need to cry ...

'You, but forever...' 

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