🌹💜I'm not for everyone +01

🌹💜I'm not for everyone, 

you too know how complicated I am. 

I have a mess in my head and 

I'm waiting for someone 

to put everything in order. 

I am like this: 

one moment I cry and the other I laugh, 

I can't always be the same, 

I need to change, 

always. 

I hate monotony, 

I get bored easily. 

I love those who turn my life upside down, 

those who challenge the unachievable and win. 

I love those who 

manage to take the worst of me and 

transform it for the better, 

those who do not think a thousand thoughts 

to tell me how impossible and 

unbearable it is but at the same time 

how much beauty is put together. 

I am so stubborn, 

I live in my thoughts and 

I don't change my mind easily, 

I stay in my things, 

even the wrong ones, 

but I believe in them until the last moment. 

I am fascinated by the details 

that no one notices and the defects 

that no one loves, 

those who know of diversity in this world 

where everyone imitates and 

they are all so the same. 

I am so moody that I would send you away 

and then scream at you that I miss you. 

You get me out of my mind and then 

you get in there.

I don't say more than a hundred words 

but for you I would write a thousand books, 

I don't speak much, you know, 

but with you I melt and 

I would tell you for hours everything 

that goes through my heart 

until I kiss you for staying to listen. 

I am so shy and insecure and 

you do not know how weak I feel inside, 

I would like to get out of it and 

not make myself a thousand dramas for anything, 

avoid making many mental films and 

start doing something concrete. 

But something inside me stops me. 

I have a lot of paranoia but then 

I think about it and I fuck the fuck up too, 

that it's not worth it and I should live longer. 

I would like to stop falling in love 

but she is stronger than me, 

stronger than you, 

overcome everything and go beyond.

I'm all head and all heart, 

with me there is no middle ground, 

if I get angry, 

with me you go crazy, 

but if I love you, 

you get completely out of your mind. 

I don't take anything for granted, 

I see love in words or gestures but 

I don't believe it until you open my eyes 

and shout that you love me 

because I see it blurry and 

you make everything more vivid, 

because I don't feel enough even if 

you shout it at me against, 

even if you give me a thousand reasons to love me. 

I am black and white, 

with me there is no gray. 

You were always in a black mood 

but I loved painting the rainbow days for you. 

I am everything and nothing, 

I could give you every millimeter of my body 

and mind or let you die in the illusion 

of having really known me. 

I do not open up to anyone, 

there is no key, 

only walls to climb but if you want, 

we can climb them together...

💜💖💗💕💘💓💞💝