🍀💙How many words...

🍀💙How many words I would like to say to myself... 

Words that I look at myself for a second from the outside come out of my mouth in rivers. 

How much courage I've been able to build, 

even what I didn't have, 

how much strength I've pulled up from the deepest abyss so I don't die in it. 

I have been foolish and stupid on many occasions. 

Sometimes I really didn't want to see some things and I took refuge in yet another lie... 

I said an infinite number of times 'everything is fine' but in reality I had very little 'good' at that moment. 

However, 

I advanced among brambles, 

weeds, 

I would feel barren and stormy and I didn't ask myself the problem of when the road, 

the pains and the ordeal would end. 

I gave attention and wasted it, 

I gave love and received. 

I've embraced true and sincere friends and I've missed some handshakes, 

some beginnings and even some endings. 

Because I've made mistakes I've made mistakes, 

but I didn't care. 

I loaded them into my baggage of experience and put them away behind my sense of responsibility. 

Sometimes I'm so strange... 

elusive... 

almost damned... 

and in other moments I seem fragile ready to collapse and give up everything... 

I have not had discounts but not having them has taught me not to give myself because life it doesn't give anything away and I have very few possibilities. 

I've learned not to waste them evaluating them and not to paint them as something that 'if I don't do it today, 

be patient, 

I'll do it tomorrow'. 

Love then let's not talk about it is something in which I never guessed. 

I didn't get half of it right, 

but even here I didn't stop, 

I continued to believe that every form of love should be enjoyed, 

and protected but never chased, 

and begged for. 

I have often been able to get people talking about me, 

sometimes positively and sometimes negatively. 

I really knew how to protect the people I love but not everyone protected me. 

I have enriched my heart and the lives of many. 

I have so many memories that I will never let go, 

others have destroyed me but what you see in me today is the steadfastness that I too will be in someone's memories. 

Now I will come to my senses and I will love myself more than before because what I am isn't that bad in the eyes of the world and I believe that all in all I can be proud of myself... 

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