🔞🌹💜There was a moment...

🌹💜There was a moment... 

in which I got lost.

I lost everything I had

attached to the back

the old paradigms

shapes

masks

shame

guilt

costumes

and the rules.

I lost hours and clock

schedule and expectations

hopes and certainties.

I have lost all that was

all the unnecessary waiting

everything I've been looking for

all I had walked for

and all that is I had left

on the side of the road.

And so, in losing everything

I also lost my fear

the fear of breaking the rules

and fierce self-criticism

the fear of death

and the fear of life

the fear of getting lost

and the fear of losing

And completely naked

without the old skin

I found a heart

vibrating in every pore

of my being

a deep drum

made of clay

stars and roots

its echo within me

it is the voice of the Old Woman

It was then that I remembered

beat after beat

that I was alive

eternally alive

that I was free

boldly free... 

💜💖💗💕💓💘💞💝